THE STRUGGLE

My apologies if you actually want to "catch up with the coutts".

I'll try to be better.

I get very little time now to actually sit down and write. There is so much that I want to do in the maybe 2 hours I get after putting Griffin down, like - do nothing [mindless TV watching], read, bible study, sleep, shower, clean, blog, read blogs, find new music to listen to, find new books to read. And, this is only on Wednesdays [or the occasions where the hubs is working an evening or out of town]. Because on the other nights, I want to spend time with my husband. So, this is why my writing is so sporadic, and is a jumbled mess [because there is so much on my mind to finally share!].

I feel this struggle between wanting to write about things that matter to me [topics], and just share in our journey [since many of our friends and family do not live in the same state and may actually want to read a little about our lives]. But then I come back to wanting to write about things that matter. Topics. Things that I am passionate about. I read blogs that encourage and inspire me, and I just look forward to their next post. I have a desire to be that for others. But - Is that realistic? Can I actually keep up with that? Do I have the time? Do I have the passion? Am I a good enough writer for that? Do I even have anything to say? What will people think? Welcome to my mind. That last question - That's something I really struggle with. Maybe I'll dig into that someday - that's getting pretty vulnerable on the internet though [and am I ready for that?].

So, friends, family, strangers. Thanks for putting up with my ramblings and attempts at different things. I'm going to try to keep y'all updated on our lives for now, and throw in a rambling thought / something I'm feeling passionate about in between.

Griff turns ONE in just over a week...so be ready for all kinds of posts about that [maybe. If I find the time. Ugh. Why is having a life outside of motherhood so difficult? [Another future rambling for you]].